sea waves...

for the last 4 months i have been continually visiting the beach.the sea is extremely beautiful and exciting.i have been resisting the call of the waves for sometime now.i feel that it would be immensely beautiful to give in to the power.but at the same time i could get completely lost.. damned.i still dont know...seems to be beyond my intellect.this is heart wrenching.pain and trauma has struck my being so hard.help...is this a prayer... i feel it is...